OWiS #23 a few days early

3 06 2010

I’m two days early. Putting OWiS up today so I can start this vacation with a kick ass number to remind me that I’m working towards a goal and to not lose sight when making choices this week / next week. So here we go…

  • Week 0 = 263.5 (-0.0)
  • Week 1 = 257.4 (-6.1)
  • Week 2 = 255.0 (-2.4)
  • Week 3 = 254.6 (-.4)
  • Week 4 = 253.8 (-.8) *I started c25k
  • Week 5 = 248.2 (-5.6)
  • Week 6 = 247.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 7 = 246.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 8 = 244.4 (-1.8)
  • Week 9 = 241.0 (-3.4)
  • Week 10 = 240.6  (-.4)
  • Week 11 = 238.0 (-2.6)
  • Week 12 = 234.8 (-3.2)
  • Week 13 = 232.8 (-2.0)
  • Week 14 = 230.0 (-2.8) *graduated c25k
  • Week 15 = 227.8 (-2.2)
  • Week 16 = 225.6 (-2.2)
  • Week 17 = 222.4 (-3.2)
  • Week 18 = 219.2 (-3.2)
  • Week 19 = 221.4 (+2.2) *the brother situation
  • Week 20 = 213.8 (-7.6)
  • Week 21 = 212.0 (-1.8)
  • Week 22 = skipped
  • Week 23 = 208.0 (-4.0) *over the course of two weeks
  • There you have it people.

    Eight pounds to Onederland.

    I hope they have rides there.





    OWiS #20… A Dear Tara Letter

    15 05 2010

    Dear Tara,

    First off, thanks for all the nice notes and mentions here on your blog. It feels really nice to know you are thinking of me everyday. I know I’ve always been around but this is the first time you’ve really made me a priority and I just can’t tell you how heart warming that is. I don’t know why it took you so long to realize my importance but now that we’re on the same page I don’t dwell on what was. I have to tell you though, I was a little leary in the beginning. I know you had your doubts and you worried a lot. But I told you from the beginning, just let me do my job and I’ll get it done.

    Sorry about last week’s “mishap”. I did that on purpose. Sometimes you have be stopped dead in your tracks to get you to realize something is not right in your world. I kept telling you things were getting more intense than what you and I were ready for. You stopped making me a priority and now that we’re in this journey side by side, I can’t let you do that anymore. But you caught on quick and I was able to really show you what I’m made of.

    I held on to a few pounds but as soon as I knew you were letting go and moving on, I too let go and started moving on. Did you see me on the ArcTrainer yesterday? How about that 11:55 mile? I KNOW RIGHT!!!! It was stupendous! I know you’ve thanked me before but today I need to be the one to extend my gratitude to you. You didn’t believe in me for the last 40 years. I know it’s not all your fault. I’ve listened in on those therapy sessions of yours (I hope you don’t mind). I grew fat and complacent and I held a grudge against you for a long time. You said you wanted to lose weight and you said it would be different this time. I needed you to prove that to me before I really got into this game. It didn’t take long for me to realize that this was a Life Changing Journey for you and I knew it was time for me to get involved. You whispered to me every night how I was going to be an athlete and every night I cried in hopes you weren’t going to break that promise to me again. Here we are almost 5 months later and I am about to wear my first number during this weekend’s 1/2 marathon.

    You kept that promise.

    As a thank you, I shed a crap load of pounds for you this week.

    How you like them apples Tara? A -7.6 pound loss just for you! Next time life starts to get a little stressful I hope you’ll remember that there are two of us in this fight. We need each other, now more than ever! Oh and thanks for the sessions with Superman this summer, it’s going to totally ROCK!

    Love,

    Your body!

    (p.s. – thanks for the haircut and massage today I’ve been looking forward to this for a while).

    (p.p.s – Thanks for letting neck come home, I’ve missed her something awful)

    The numbers:

  • Week 0 = 263.5 (-0.0)
  • Week 1 = 257.4 (-6.1)
  • Week 2 = 255.0 (-2.4)
  • Week 3 = 254.6 (-.4)
  • Week 4 = 253.8 (-.8) *I started c25k
  • Week 5 = 248.2 (-5.6)
  • Week 6 = 247.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 7 = 246.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 8 = 244.4 (-1.8)
  • Week 9 = 241.0 (-3.4)
  • Week 10 = 240.6  (-.4)
  • Week 11 = 238.0 (-2.6)
  • Week 12 = 234.8 (-3.2)
  • Week 13 = 232.8 (-2.0)
  • Week 14 = 230.0 (-2.8) *graduated c25k
  • Week 15 = 227.8 (-2.2)
  • Week 16 = 225.6 (-2.2)
  • Week 17 = 222.4 (-3.2)
  • Week 18 = 219.2 (-3.2)
  • Week 19 = 221.4 (+2.2) *the brother situation
  • Week 20 = 213.8 (-7.6)




  • OWiS #19….the streak is over.

    8 05 2010

    I knew it when I wrote yesterday’s post that today would be the first time in this journey that I would have a gain. You try to not let it get to you but it’s hard. I try to say “it’s only 2.2 pounds” but with what’s been happening to me this week it feels like a ton. I try to stay in the moment but I can hear that old tape recorder warming up in my head saying things like “I knew you would gain eventually”, “All that hard work and still you failed”, “Everyone knows you can’t do this”, “You’re so lazy”, “I hate you”….

    I shouldn’t be this emotional over such a small number but I’m not going to lie to you. I am. I know it’s much more than that as well. I know I should be working towards letting this past week go and looking toward next week as I work through this situation with my brother. If ever I needed the ability to dig in my heels, draw the line and get back to business it’s this week.

  • Week 0 = 263.5 (-0.0)
  • Week 1 = 257.4 (-6.1)
  • Week 2 = 255.0 (-2.4)
  • Week 3 = 254.6 (-.4)
  • Week 4 = 253.8 (-.8) *I started c25k
  • Week 5 = 248.2 (-5.6)
  • Week 6 = 247.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 7 = 246.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 8 = 244.4 (-1.8)
  • Week 9 = 241.0 (-3.4)
  • Week 10 = 240.6  (-.4)
  • Week 11 = 238.0 (-2.6)
  • Week 12 = 234.8 (-3.2)
  • Week 13 = 232.8 (-2.0)
  • Week 14 = 230.0 (-2.8) *graduated c25k
  • Week 15 = 227.8 (-2.2)
  • Week 16 = 225.6 (-2.2)
  • Week 17 = 222.4 (-3.2)
  • Week 18 = 219.2 (-3.2)
  • Week 19 = 221.4 (+2.2) *The situation
  • The day’s between Week 18 and Week 19 were extremely stressful. Emotionally I managed to keep my head above water. In the past this wouldn’t have happened. I would  have sat in a cesspool of feelings that did nothing but keep me down. I went to the gym everyday this week regardless of my emotional state and as soon as I post this I’m putting my gym bag together to go and swim until I cry (which really considering how I’m feeling right now the crying will start in about 3 seconds).

    The hardest part about this is my weigh in on Monday with Superman. There will be a gain and I feel like I want to lie and say “I ate too much” (which I didn’t, if anything I didn’t eat enough this week) because I don’t know how to say “it’s stress gain” without having an emotional breakdown.

    I know I probably sound like a whiny baby. I feel like it for sure. There’s so much more to this than just those damn 2.2 pounds. I will stay in the moment. I will move forward. I do not weigh 263 pounds any longer. The scale does not define me. I will fight. I will allow myself to feel. I will let go. I will be free.





    OWiS #18

    1 05 2010

    A new month.

    A new number.

    A new catergory.

    Thank you again body for every drop of sweat, every tear and for every time I  just didn’t think you could but dug in your heals and proved me wrong. The half way mark is just in front of you. Being “overweight” (which is a compliment) instead of “obese” is now within your reach. I won’t ask you to find the strength to keep going because it’s already in you.

    Keep fighting!

    Keep moving!

    Keep living!

    The numbers:

  • Week 0 = 263.5 (-0.0)
  • Week 1 = 257.4 (-6.1)
  • Week 2 = 255.0 (-2.4)
  • Week 3 = 254.6 (-.4)
  • Week 4 = 253.8 (-.8) *I started c25k
  • Week 5 = 248.2 (-5.6)
  • Week 6 = 247.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 7 = 246.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 8 = 244.4 (-1.8)
  • Week 9 = 241.0 (-3.4)
  • Week 10 = 240.6  (-.4)
  • Week 11 = 238.0 (-2.6)
  • Week 12 = 234.8 (-3.2)
  • Week 13 = 232.8 (-2.0)
  • Week 14 = 230.0 (-2.8) *graduated c25k
  • Week 15 = 227.8 (-2.2)
  • Week 16 = 225.6 (-2.2)
  • Week 17 = 222.4 (-3.2)
  • Week 18 = 219.2 (-3.2)




  • OWiS #17

    24 04 2010

    I’m speechless this morning.

    I just crossed over the 40 pound mark!

    A -3.2 loss this week brings the total to -41.1

    I feel like I should write something profound, but honestly I’m just going to let this picture and the numbers sink in and then head to Seattle for my workshop.

    The numbers:

  • Week 0 = 263.5 (-0.0)
  • Week 1 = 257.4 (-6.1)
  • Week 2 = 255.0 (-2.4)
  • Week 3 = 254.6 (-.4)
  • Week 4 = 253.8 (-.8) *I started c25k
  • Week 5 = 248.2 (-5.6)
  • Week 6 = 247.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 7 = 246.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 8 = 244.4 (-1.8)
  • Week 9 = 241.0 (-3.4)
  • Week 10 = 240.6  (-.4)
  • Week 11 = 238.0 (-2.6)
  • Week 12 = 234.8 (-3.2)
  • Week 13 = 232.8 (-2.0)
  • Week 14 = 230.0 (-2.8) *graduated c25k
  • Week 15 = 227.8 (-2.2)
  • Week 16 = 225.6 (-2.2)
  • Week 17 = 222.4 (-3.2)




  • OWiS #16 – 4 months of blood, sweat and tears (lots of tears)

    17 04 2010

    Dear Body;

    I would just like to take this opportunity to give you a heart filled thank you for all the hard work you have done for me these past 4 months. I’ll admit when I first asked you to embark on this journey, I didn’t think you had it in you. I’ll be the first to admit, you have more determination than I could have imagined.

    • I asked you to take the stairs, you did.
    • I asked you to move,  you did.
    • I asked you to eat less, you did.
    • I asked you to sweat, you did.
    • I asked you to run, you did.
    • I asked you to join a gym, you did.
    • I asked you to get up at 5am to get to that gym, you did.
    • I asked you love yourself enough to take control, you did.
    • I asked you to love yourself, you do.

    So today Body, I present to you the OWiS #16…you should be proud, cause me and Optimus Prime are more proud of you today than you can imagine!

    The numbers

  • Week 0 = 263.5 (-0.0)
  • Week 1 = 257.4 (-6.1)
  • Week 2 = 255.0 (-2.4)
  • Week 3 = 254.6 (-.4)
  • Week 4 = 253.8 (-.8) *I started c25k
  • Week 5 = 248.2 (-5.6)
  • Week 6 = 247.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 7 = 246.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 8 = 244.4 (-1.8)
  • Week 9 = 241.0 (-3.4)
  • Week 10 = 240.6  (-.4)
  • Week 11 = 238.0 (-2.6)
  • Week 12 = 234.8 (-3.2)
  • Week 13 = 232.8 (-2.0)
  • Week 14 = 230.0 (-2.8) *graduated c25k
  • Week 15 = 227.8 (-2.2)
  • Week 16 = 225.6 (-2.2)
  • You’ve really shown me what your made of Body. Now get out there and show me what you’ve got!

     





    OWiS #15

    10 04 2010

    Before I get to the numbers, I’ve got a special shout out to my Sister in Sweat Meegan over at RedStar5. Today is her first 5k and I just want her to kick ass and enjoy the hell out of herself!!!!

    WAY TO GO MEEGAN!!!

    Okay, now down to business. A hard week of commitment, brings about a change. A change in the right direction…

     

    I am officially in the 220’s!! Despite it being TOM, my body didn’t let me down. I pushed my body hard this week and today it woke me up, thanked me for my hard work and gave me numbers to be proud of. Thank you body! That’s a total of -35.7 and a -2.2 loss for the week. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought I could 35 pounds lighter in just over 3 months with nothing but eating less and moving more.

    The numbers:

  • Week 0 = 263.5 (-0.0)
  • Week 1 = 257.4 (-6.1)
  • Week 2 = 255.0 (-2.4)
  • Week 3 = 254.6 (-.4)
  • Week 4 = 253.8 (-.8) *I started c25k
  • Week 5 = 248.2 (-5.6)
  • Week 6 = 247.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 7 = 246.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 8 = 244.4 (-1.8)
  • Week 9 = 241.0 (-3.4)
  • Week 10 = 240.6  (-.4)
  • Week 11 = 238.0 (-2.6)
  • Week 12 = 234.8 (-3.2)
  • Week 13 = 232.8 (-2.0)
  • Week 14 = 230.0 (-2.8) *graduated c25k
  • Week 15 = 227.8 (-2.2)