A picture post…including me

11 03 2010

I love the TIWYF website…I also hate it. Hate it because in order for these bad boys to make it to the website you know these gluttonous creations of evilness are being consumed on a regular basis by people who for some ungodly reason think a)it’s good b) it’s okay to consume and c)…well just look at some of these pictures.

Cadbury Creme Eggs Benedict

Sliced doughnuts topped with brownie mix, melted Cadbury Creme Eggs and frosting, garnished with red sprinkles and served with fried pound cake chunks.

A rough estimate of calories for that dish = 1552

The Hickory Rancher

1/2 pound beef patty, muenster cheese, 7 pieces of maple bacon, sauteed onions and a housemade honey hickory BBQ sauce on a kaiser roll.

Calorie count = approx 1375. That’s lowballing it and doesn’t include what looks to be sweet potato fries and the ginormous shake.

The Flatline Burger

Double bacon cheeseburger with peanut butter deep fried and served with two sides of chipotle mayo.

First off…gross! Second off lowball calorie = 1350 (not including deep frying calories)


Pretty self explanatory.  Each bite carries about 126 calories each. Now I don’t know about you but I’m guessing the entire box is getting consumed.

Cherpumple Pie

Bottom: pumpkin pie inside a spice cake, middle: apple pie inside a yellow cake, top: cherry pie inside a white cake, all surrounded by cream cheese frosting.

I can’t even begin to try to figure out the calorie in this monster. 3 pies, 3 cakes with frosting = WTF!??!

Chocolate covered bacon maple donut bar

Again pretty self explanatory and gonna run you about 700 calories.

And Finally…

Upside Down Mac & Cheese Pizza

A layer of mac & cheese sandwiched between two cheese pizzas.

Because neither the cheese pizza or the box of macroni and cheese is enough. This thing will run you about 900 calories PER SLICE!!!

Okay here’s a picture totally off topic. It’s of me. The reason I’m posting it is because it was snapped this morning by my husband while I was waiting to go to work. I want everyone to look closely…

There is no double chin!!!!! Go back and look if you need to…I’ll wait.

(insert waiting music)

How cool is that?

Oh and a little sneaky peek at some tattoos. I have 36.

Yes I said 36.


Taking the advice from other blogs…

9 03 2010

Have you ever woke up feeling like this little guy?

What’s there not to be happy about? I mean look at that bunny suit!! How can you not feel anything but pure elation at the idea of wearing a bunny suit? And yet, there he is all sad.




Thinking about the past.

Worried about the future.

I can’t explain why some days I wake up and am ready to face the world in front of me. Ready to get physical. Move more, eat less. Ready to lose weight and get closer to the person I am meant to be.  Ready to face whatever challenge is presented in front me and take action to be successful.

I also can’t explain why some days I wake up and put on the “bunny suit” (metaphorically speaking of course) and yet just can’t seem to get it together. Exercise is unsatisfactory. Walking my dogs for our normal 2 miles is not only unsatisfactory but frustrating. Food feels like a challenge no matter what I do to make it yummy (today’s breakfast was old fashioned oats cooked to perfection with a banana and honey – what’s not to love???) and the minutes are just tick tick ticking away at work at such a slow pace I feel like I’ve been here forever (and still only half way through the day). The scale is down (under 240 for two days now). I mean seriously, what is wrong with me today? I feel like I want to go home and crawl under the blankets and just forget that I exist.


Not in that “oh my god, someone call 911 we’ve got a jumper” sort of non existence feeling just a feeling of…well like that kid up there.


Today there is absolutely no reason to feel this way so I’m going to try to take the advice of a blog I read yesterday. NerdFitness is a blog I just found yesterday and while I found his first entry I stumbled upon a very good read, I now find it a very poignant read. He basically points out that sh*t happens. Deal with it and move on. I’m gonna try and use each point he makes to work through this.

  • Understand that Sh*t happens: Okay so let me try to understand the way I am feeling today. It’s not reasonable to think that everyday is going to be all “rainbows” and “butterflies”. It’s not reasonable to think that every exercise session you’ll feel great about making better choices. It’s not reasonable to think that every portion of food you put in your mouth will give you a sense of glee for making healthier choices. Some days are just not going to be that great. Today is one of those days. There is no reason to feel defeated, in fact I should let myself feel a little pride in that instead of plopping myself down in front of the computer and not doing anything, I did walk my dogs the entire 2 miles. There were parts of it I did enjoy. I did get on the wii fit and break a sweat. I did make a delicious oatmeal this morning and even enjoyed some of it.
  • vent: Pretty much got that covered here.
  • Realize that it’s not that bad: I already figured as much. I’m not in some pit of despair thinking this is what it is till the end of all time. He asks “Do you still have a pulse”? Yes? Good, cause it could be way worse. Very true. I need to keep that in perspective. The hardest thing I have to do in my life right now to move more and eat less.
  • Learn from it: What I need to take away from today is that I can do everything right and some days will still feel like picture up there. The good thing about today is it’s only 24 hours. Tomorrow may or may not feel any better. I won’t know till I get there so stop worrying.
  • Put it behind you: Gettin there.
  • Don’t dwell on it: Easier said than done but I know from past “episodes” that it will pass. I just need to ride it out without making any self defeating choices. I’m sure this time tomorrow I’ll be feeling better.

So here I am at the end of my “process”. Do I feel 100% better? No. But I feel like I have a better handle of what’s going on inside of me. I will just allow myself to stay in the moment and not let my mind wander off into things that a) things I can’t change and b) things that haven’t happened. Here’s what I’m going to do to work through the rest of today and give myself some much needed love:

*I’m going to stretch during every 10 minute break until I leave work. It feels good and I know it’s helping me prepare for tomorrow’s c25k week 6 day 2.

*I’m going to read all my blogs under the “we’re all in this together”. It seems that no matter what I’m feeling, someone else blogs about it too.

*I’m going to go home and immediately put on my favorite pajamas and hoodie. I’m going to curl up next to my husband and let my dogs up on the couch. They all love me unconditionally and that is more important than anything I can think of.

*I will go to bed early so that I read a little longer than usual.  Before I fall asleep I will think about my run tomorrow and getting another day closer to the c25k graduation.

*I will allow myself to feel whatever it is that I’m feeling. I will not blame myself for things made up (not doing enough housework, not working enough, not saving enough money, not exercising enough, not a good enough wife). These are old tapes that play for no reason except to be self-sabotaging. Tonight it will not work. I will just feel what I’m feeling and let my emotions take care of themselves. I know from past experience that if I ride it out, it will not likely be how I’m feeling tomorrow.

Are you giving yourself the much needed love to make it through the day?

Weigh in #10, geocaching, and perpetual soreness

8 03 2010

This weeks weigh in is a little late. Busy weekend. Keep reading!

Weigh in #10

I wouldn’t even really consider this week a weight loss as it’s so small but it’s not a gain so I’m chalking this one up to a success! My calorie intake was fine. I think it’s the microwave popcorn I ate the day before my weigh-in. Let me rephrase that: I went to the movie’s (Alice in Wonderland 3D) and snuck in 1.5 bags of microwave popcorn (and some fruit of course). The reason I think it’s salt/water retention is because I flushed out my system yesterday and saw a significant loss this morning. However I’m not using it as my weigh-in weight since Saturdays are the days and today is not Saturday!

First the picture:

Now the numbers:

  • Week 1 = 257.4 (-6.1)
  • Week 2 = 255.0 (-2.4)
  • Week 3 = 254.6 (-.4)
  • Week 4 = 253.8 (-.8) *I started c25k
  • Week 5 = 248.2 (-5.6)
  • Week 6 = 247.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 7 = 246.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 8 = 244.4 (-1.8)
  • Week 9 = 241.0 (-3.4)
  • Week 10= 240.6 (-.4)

That brings my total up to -22.9.

I reached my goal of 240 so I did just what I said I was going to do in weigh-in #9 which is buy myself a pair of pants. In case you’re wondering what kind of pants…keep reading!


I bought a new pair of hiking pants as my reward for hitting 240! Then I went geocaching for 4 hours this past Saturday. It was just about the most fun ever! My friend Heidi is an avid geocacher and took me on an awesome series. I’m not sure of the mileage covered but after 4 hours of nothing but hunting and walking I’d say I covered at least 10 miles (AT LEAST). I was so tired (and sore) that it gave me a good reason to move my running days to Monday, Wednesday, Friday instead of Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday.  What a great way to get a great workout!

Perpetual soreness:

Not that this is a bad thing. I’m just always sore. Especially the back of my thighs and calves after sitting for long periods of time (and unfortunately my work has me doing just that). Some days (like Sunday) I’m sore enough in my muscles that I fore-go any type of exercise. I think the most exercise I did on Sunday was to go to my local Metropolitan market to pick up some Sole and organic veggies.

Today was a run day. Week 6 day 1 of c25k. I am 8 sessions away from graduating. I am so gonna buy me one of those shirts.

Lots of people are inquiring about whether or not I’ve picked a 5k to run. The answer is no, not yet. I’m not ready. Both physically and mentally. I want to finish the c25k and then run 3 x week at 30 minutes for a few weeks to build up stamina. I may pick one as my graduation “gift” but it would be in the Summer time before it was happening (Or at least late Spring).  When I do run, I’ll be wearing that shirt up there for sure!!!

Gratitude Adjustment…Fage discovery

3 03 2010

I was reading an entry over at SeattleRunnerGirl’s blog about taking credit for our success and it dawned on me that I’ve not really ever given myself credit for what I have done success wise in the last few months. And as a matter of fact I’ve not given myself enough credit for my successes over my lifetime.

Today I’m going to have a gratitude adjustment. If you haven’t had one in a while and you’ve been beating yourself up over something trivial I suggest you do the same.

Here are some of my success:

  • I am the survivor of an alcoholic mother. One of my brothers died due to his drug abuse and another brother is close to being on the way out because of his alcoholism. It’s in our genes. I will not follow in their footsteps today.
  • I am a recovering meth-head. That’s saying alot considering I have many friends (or at least they were my friends during the time of using 20 years ago) that did not survive their use/abuse. Again, I will not be following in their footsteps.
  • I put myself through school and do what I love to do. Not many people can say “I want to be a (insert fantasy job here) when I grow up” an actually do it. When I was 12 years old I said I wanted to be a sign language interpreter and here I am today doing it…and doing it very well.
  • I quit smoking 2 years ago. It’s been an ongoing battle for my entire adult (and not so adult) life. I started when I was 12. Even after my mother was diagnosed and subsequently died of lung cancer, I continued to smoke. I have quit before (5 years is my longest time as a non smoker) and I hope to never quit again.
  • I paid off all my credit cards. I did it during the financial downfall of 2008/2009. Not many people can say the same.
  • I’ve lost 22 pounds since December 29th 2009. It may not seem like much but I’ve done it solely on eating less and moving more. NO pills. NO diet fads. NO Tony Little. Just eating less and moving more.
  • I have completed 5 of the 8 weeks in Couch to 5k. What I couldn’t do 6 weeks ago was run 60 seconds. What I can do this week is run 8 minutes. This will not be what I can do next week. I will be running longer, guaranteed!

For all of these things I say “Job well done, Tara!”

What’s your gratitude adjustment look like?


I’ve heard people talking about it.

A lot!

So I tried it tonight with blueberries and some honey (2 tbsp just in case I didn’t like it)…

Not only did I like it, but I loved it. And at 160 calories for a tasty bowl of fage, 3 oz fresh blueberries and 2 tbsp on honey (which I know I don’t need all of that so more like 120 calories), this is going to be my new favorite treat.

Tell me how you eat your fage!

My own domain, 8 minutes! and motivation update…

2 03 2010

My own domain:

It’s official. I decided to go ahead and purchase the domain name “263andcounting”. At only $14 you can’t beat it and it looks all official and stuff. I thought about coming up with some catchy kind of name like others I’ve seen around but I’d rather just keep it honest. I started at 263 and I don’t ever want to be there again. EVER! I have to admit that some of your blog names out there are just about the bees knees. However my bees knees are hella pudgy so for now I remain 263andcounting.com

8 minutes:

(insert kick ass drumroll)…

Now before you go and assume I’m throwing up some crazy ass gang sign (cause I know I look that dangerous and I am wearing red and my home town is pretty much riddled with gangsters) remember I’m a sign language interpreter and holding my phone and using both hands to signify the number 8 isn’t conducive for taking a picture.

My interpreter/deaf friends know what that says but for my ASL impaired readers let me just reiterate: I JUST RAN FOR 8 MINUTES!!

Let that sink in.

And it wasn’t as hard as I had imagined.


No seriously.

Same story as before. I woke up nervous. Sunday’s run was three 5 minute intervals and surprisingly (but maybe not really tooooo surprisingly as I’m noticing a pattern) it was easier to do these 5 minute intervals than previously attempted. There would be no 5 minute run today to lead into the 8 minute interval. It was the warm-up and then off I go for the 8 minutes.

I’m no longer concerned about speed when I run. I took my HRM (heart rate monitor) with me on Sunday and determined that I’m hitting my target rate (144-150) even at my slower pace. I’ll take it!

Slow and steady. The first 5 minutes go by and I hear Robert Ullrey (the podcast man) inform me that if this was my first day to go ahead and walk for 3 minutes. As this was my second day I know that I needed to keep going. The next time I was going to hear that man’s voice he was going to be whispering in my ear that my 8 minutes was over and to walk for 5 minutes.

If there was ever a time I appreciated a man’s voice in my ear it was 3 minutes later…

I was done with my first interval. 3 weeks ago I said it was the first time I’d ever run for 90 seconds. 2 weeks ago I said 3 minutes was the longest I’d ever run. Last week, it was 5 minutes. Today for the first time in my life I ran for 8 minutes.

(insert crying…blah blah blah, walk for 5 minutes)

The second interval was harder than the first but I did it once I would do it again. I’m pretty sure that if an elderly lady was walking next to me she’d pass me like a corvette next to a Studebaker but sooner than later than expected it was 8 minutes and I was done for the day.

Week 5 day 2 = FINISHED!

Thursday will be a full 20 minutes of running without any walking breaks. I’m actually looking forward to it. I’m finding that just as I’m getting into a comfortable form for running it’s time to stop and getting back to that form is harder the second or third time around.

This is starting to get exciting folks! I’m closer to the end than I was the beginning. Everyday I am pleasantly surprised and proud of what my body is accomplishing.  I’ve been stretching more and can tell the difference in how my shins are feeling. No pain this time around!


I’ve gotten some really great responses to my last post. The consensus is that motivation is overrated. Motivation (or lack there of) can keep you from doing what needs to be done. I don’t get motivated to go to work. I just go. I don’t get motivated to pay the bills. I just pay them. I don’t get motivated to take care of the ones I love. I just do it (hello nike ad). Where motivation can fail, determination (thanks Seattle Runner Girl) lingers as long as I want it bad enough.

I do.

Do you?

Motivation..or lack thereof

1 03 2010

I’ve been perusing blogs pretty much all day while at work. I’ve noticed a “theme” if you would. It seems many people have lost their motivation to continue their journey towards healthy living (whatever definition that holds for each individual).

As this is really my first attempt at changing a lifestyle and not just relying on whatever weight loss fad is out there (including but not limited too Atkins, Weight loss pills, purging, pre-bariatric surgery restrictions) I’m wondering if this is pretty common when you start out on this long journey?

Is it the 8 week blues?

It is the New Year’s resolution dissolution?

Granted I’ve had a few minor emotional setbacks. Emotional setbacks due to being angry with myself for getting to this weight, frustrated because I couldn’t run 60 seconds without stopping, or just plain old “holy hell, I’m cranky today”. I’m still moving everyday and in that see the emotional setbacks getting fewer and farther in between.

Today I don’t lack in motivation.


But what about tomorrow? Or 3 weeks from now? I turn to those who have had substantial weight loss (50+ pounds) and wonder what they did to keep motivated? What did they do when they weren’t feeling motivated? Did they persevere? Did they hang their heads and wonder if this was going to be another unsuccessful try? Did they look in the mirror and point a finger at the person staring back and firmly say “You will lose this weight. You will get healthy. You will not give up”

Did they cry one night in a bowl of ice-cream and then get up the next morning and climb 100 stairs? Was is one conscious decision after another until habits formed?

I am surrounded by people just starting out on this journey. Maybe to them it isn’t a journey? Maybe it’s just a passing thought. For me this is a journey. I do not want to be 100 pounds overweight any longer. Period. I do not want to wear a size 24 pants. I do not want to be winded after climbing a set of stairs. I do not want to be ashamed of who I have become physically at the age of 40. I see other newly commitment people dropping like flies (and by dropping I mean, not posting on their blogs or over at calorieking) and I fear I will be one of them eventually.

Tell me what motivates you and how did you get over those motivational hurdles? Tell me what to look out for so that I can be prepared if I see that hurdle up ahead. Share your wisdom with me. I want to cross that threshold of being high numbered weight loss success story.

Help me write a chapter!

Weigh in Week #9

27 02 2010

First let me start this post by admitting my tyrant about my eating episode was a little on the childish side. Yes I know eating 500 calories over your daily intake won’t go straight to my thighs and yes I know that weight fluxuates from day to day. However, I was having an emotional outburst and have since come to my senses. Somedays are so much more difficult to get through than others. Thursday just happened to be that “kind of day”. I didn’t starve myself the next day or give up and eat other high caloric foods. I didn’t skip getting exercise or over exercise. I vented…

And moved on.

Which brings me today. This is week #9 and I am extremely satisfied with the results.  First the picture (since that’s the proof!):




Here are my stats since December 29th, 2009:

So here’s what the weekly breakdown has looked like

  • Week 1 = 257.4 (-6.1)
  • Week 2 = 255.0 (-2.4)
  • Week 3 = 254.6 (-.4)
  • Week 4 = 253.8 (-.8) *I started c25k
  • Week 5 = 248.2 (-5.6)
  • Week 6 = 247.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 7 = 246.2 (-1.0)
  • Week 8 = 244.4 (-1.8)
  • Week 9 = 241.0 (-3.4)

That’s brings my total loss up to -22.5 lbs.

This brings me closer to my intermediate goal of 240. As a reward for reaching 240 I will be buying a new pair of pants and donating my size 24 to our local Goodwill. As a reward for this weeks loss I bought 5 bunches of daffodils that will bloom all week and remind me of the good I am doing for my body.

What’s your reward?